AdamCF

diagnosed with depression at 12, constantly wants to die... life is fun I guess.

Constantly gets confused with being a girl because I have no balls or some shit

everyone hates me. literally everyone. i have no friends. yay life

everyone thinks I'm gay when I'm seriously not. 

My birthday was over a month ago and I've still gotten nothing for it (except a box of pockys which I ate and then cried myself to sleep)

I am always internally crying except for now and most of the time when I'm externally crying. 

I skip school to cry in my bed

I once said "fuck my life" and i got told I was just trying to get attention

Noone believed I had depression until one day I took a photo of the certificate thing and they all said I photoshopped it

i want to die

i act happy irl and you would probably not guess that I constantly think about suicide and weed

idc how open I am on the internet, I'll probably abandon you all in a week or two

I make stupid mistakes when I'm upset or tired, and I'm always making stupid mistakes

I listen to a load of indie rock (the kind that is halfway inbetween pop and rock). the stuff i listen to is like if someone added electric guitars, depression, and bass into pop music. Its also really hard to find the stuff I like so just go listen to uhhhhhhmmmmm No Below by Speedy Ortiz or something.

I do my homework at 11pm because I cba to do it any other time

I keep juul pods loaded with THC under my bed and have a juul in my school bag for when I'm pissed and want some cheap weed alternatives.

I have a guitar but I don't know how to play it. I'm hoping to change that in the summer but idk

im not talented. the only talent I could possibly have is programming which I'm decent at

I lack the self confidence to tell anyone the genre of music I like

I wanna dye my hair but I can't for the reasons above

I'm a grammer nazi but I an't spell.

My mum once told me to commit suicide

my parents hit me when they're angry

whjy am i making thid so depressing, its not like anyone cares about this or me. people probably wont even see this. if ye see this, email me [email protected] and I'll give you £5 on paypal because I'm nice...

I'm nice even though I want to brutally murder everyone (including myself) with a machete.

No one ever believes what I say (scroll back to the depression thing). 

I have panic attacks every few days except I never tell anyone because I know its pointless and my parents will probably just say "ohh no its fine you didnt" or some shit like that

my parents are white. very white

I honestly think I'm adopted.I am in no way similar to my dad. Me and my sister both look like we're russians.

I first attempted suicide seriously at 11 by drinking toxic air freshner, but I spat it out for some reason (probably because I'm a pussy).

Like a lot of people, I use games to get away from reality. When games are ruined COUGH MILLER COUGH I get pissed and feel even more depressed. Without this stuff I'd probably just lie in my bed all day and vape or some shit

I don't accept apologies because they're not ever sincere. I know it will happen again. The most acepting thig I'll do is a "Hmm" to acknowledge it, and the least accepting thing I'll do is list all the reasons why I'm not forgiving them and why they can fuck right off.